After I'd gone through my attempts at trying to lose a person who was following me, my next course of action was to pause and wait--scope out the area to see if this creepy person is still in the vicinity. Again, I reemphasize that I did not go home immediately for fear that this person is lurking, trying to determine my final destination. Once the coast is clear, I proceeded home, perhaps in another non-direct route...just in case.
If this stranger finally caught up to me either via discovering hiding/waiting location or merely via crossing pathways, the panic that would ensue would leave me in a questionable situation. Would I run? Would I speak? Do I prepare to fight with whatever I had on me? When solo, I have often pretended that I had a weapon on me when I had forgotten mine at my house. I walk with my hands in my jacket pocket or one hand in my purse, thinking that would be at least a deterrent. I probably look something silly to anyone paying attention to my moves.
I have also been in several situations where I have gotten on my cell phone, and remained on my cell phone, for enjoyment AND for comfort, in uncertain situations. In fact, when people knock on my door, I often tell the person on the other line what is going on...to prep them...just in case I need a back up (from a distance). When the situation is certain, I inform my friends what I am about to do, and then I get off the phone so that I can take action. My friends are keen in their detections.
And so I thought about this as I watched Rachel Jeantel's testimony in the GZ trial. The defense attorney tried to emphasize to Rachel that Trayvon had "confronted" GZ. The word confront has a negative connotation...well actually there are several definitions:
verb (used with object)
1.to face in hostility or defiance; oppose: The feuding factions confronted one another.
2.to present for acknowledgment, contradiction, etc.; set face to face: They confronted him with evidence of his crime.
3.to stand or come in front of; stand or meet facing: The two long-separated brothers confronted each other speechlessly.
4.to be in one's way: the numerous obstacles that still confronted him.
5.to bring together for examination or comparison.
However, the word approach, which the defense attorney used after Rachel's repeated insistence that Trayvon did not confront GZ, is a more innocent word:
ap·proachverb (used with object)
1.to come near or nearer to: The cars slowed down as they approached the intersection.
2.to come near to in quality, character, time, or condition; to come within range for comparison: As a poet he hardly approaches Keats.
3.to present, offer, or make a proposal or request to: to approach the president with a suggestion.
4.to begin work on; set about: to approach a problem.
5.to make advances to; address.
And yet Rachel still denied that Trayvon had approached GZ.
"No, sir...."I definitely appreciated her adamance. What Rachel had emphasized logically flows with the idea of someone who is being followed and is discovered. Trayon had no need to approach nor confront GZ because GZ was already in his pathway, running up on him. It was GZ who sought to confront.
"He got close to Trayvon"
"I did not say Trayvon approached the man, sir"
As GZ told it, Trayvon had already circled his car, in the dark, perhaps appearing to say something. But GZ, who was on the phone with NEN, rolled up his windows as Trayvon neared. Why would Trayvon need to approach/confront this stranger a second time?
The defense attorney tried to insist that Rachel knew Trayvon was about to start a fight. He also indicated that that was why Rachel didn't "come forward to the police." To which Rachel replied,
"He would not allow me on the phone with him if he were about to have a fight."Defense also tried to trip Rachel up by stating the obvious--that she wasn't there so she couldn't really know.
"I don't know, sir...I wasn't there, sir."And my response to Don West would have been,
No shit, sir.But Rachel left us all with this classic line,
That's real retarded, sir.Yes, it is retarded to think that she wouldn't know if her own friend Trayvon, with whom she had traded texts all day, with whom she had spoken to all day, with whom she had a history with...real retarded to think that she wouldn't know that Trayvon was running, out of breath, trying to lose GZ, and approached by GZ.
But then again, when you fixate on the Cracka aspect of it all (instead of the creepy) it is easy to lose focus.