What Do I Tell Them?

I have been relatively silent on this blog recently...I get like that some times. When you're traveling through a healing journey, sometimes, you just get tired of addressing the issues...almost as if talking about it is re-living it.

I am watchful of all the violence in the media--the murders of women and children and custody disputes and divorces. It's a regular occurrence. I feel my inner rage growing inside.

I communicate with mothers on a regular basis...mothers who have been fucked by or are getting fucked by the family court system in conjunctions with their abusers. I don't know what to say to them anymore.

What do I do when they cry?

What do I do when they don't "get it"?

What do I tell them?

Do I tell them everything's going to work out?...because shit already isn't working out--that's why we are communicating. Do I tell them things will get better for them? I have no knowledge of the end. No foresight. Each case is different. But the patterns I have been watching are all the same. We are all getting fucked. I want them to run...

And now the system is coming down on those who are so bold enough to stand up for us...with us.

Who will be left except for the devil roaming the earth, himself?

If ever there were a God, I cannot fathom that He or She would envision this.

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I have more than a handful of posts in draft mode...my thoughts are stuck. I know what I want to say...but what I need to say, I'm not able to do in writing. I tried podcasting it out but in that I am a perfectionist, it was never just right.

I have some shit to get off my chest about Obama. I'm waiting for him to either be my best friend, or my enemy. As it stands, he teetering right in between. I feel conflicted about the shit that I have to say, because of the whole issue with saying things in mixed company...and racism...but I gotta say it...I just don't know if anyone will understand it as most of the people going through this family court bullshit seem to be White...Black people don't have time for this kind of bullshit. We're still trying to get a leg up!?

So, how do I say it?

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I have been online now for 6 months. Woohoo. No blog anniversary post. I'm not in the mood and I haven't been. People keep landing on my blog looking for CHILD SEX, YEMEN CHILD SEX, YEMEN SEX, JAMES RANDI PORN....someone please tell me what the fuck this is about because there is no porn up in this muthafucker!

Until my thoughts are further released, I'm going to start taking some of the search queries and responding to them as posts. Let's go for a ride...