Monday

Abortion in Florida

I had abortion, in Florida. I paid for it out of pocket, too. I rounded up the $300 or $400 somehow (my impregnator didn't offer a dime, or even to babysit, or even to drive me) to get one. I had insurance and I got a discount for having it but it didn't cover it. (As a side note, my friend in another state on Medicaid got her abortion covered. I was so jealous.) I didn't think twice about getting it either. I was a young, single parent, trying to finish college, but most of all, just fucking poor. If it weren't for foodstamps and food pantries, we would've starved. If it weren't for temporary assistance here and there, I would have had no electricity to cook, heat or cool, even if I did have food. And I often had to jump through hoops to get these things. Seriously, with no babysitter, you wake up at the crack of dawn to stand in line and try to beat the 30 other people so you could get seen for assistance for that day, or week. Then, if you "won," you still had to come back for other appointments. I digress. Abortion.

I knew I was getting an abortion. To me, there were no other options. This was (and is) a personal decision. No matter what anyone else says, even if you ask for their advice (which is really just their emotional support), you're going to do what you want to do (and you should do what is best for you and your situation). Honestly, I didn't (and don't) give a shit about what the embryo or "baby" looks like or what week of development it is in. I didn't (and don't) give a rat's ass about getting rid of a potential Michael Jordan or Charles Drew. Call it heartless all you want. I cared about the then and there, and how unfair it would be for my family if I had to feed another mouth and give my attention, physical and mental resources to another child. With one more kid, all those stares that you already get when you go into social services increase...eye-rollin, nasty-mouthed social workers who don't give a shit whether your poverty is situational versus generational. You're just a last name, or a social security number. Why the fuck would I want to further ruin our lives? Abortion.

When I walked into the clinic, I didn't hesitate. I wasn't scared. I was nervous, observant, and quiet. An abortion takes all of 10 minutes. 10 fucking minutes and I think 30 minutes of "recovery" and then you can get the hell on with your life. Seriously, you can even have sex sooner than you could if you had had a baby. Yeah, sex. Sex, same thing that gets you pregnant. It isn't dirty. It isn't shameful. It doesn't go away. I digress. Abortion.

I walked out a new woman. I wasn't depressed. I wasn't glad that I had to get an abortion, but I wasn't dwelling on it. I was immediately making plans for the future, which involved not getting pregnant (yes, still having sex though) and proceeding with the goals I had set before. My life would not be any more difficult than it already was. I am so thankful that I had an abortion. I am so thankful that I had the money. If Florida passes legislation that requires women who seek abortions to have an ultrasound first, that they must pay for, it is only evidence of the continued subjugation of women in the United States. If I had had to pay for an ultrasound, in addition to the abortion, I don't know where that money would have come from. Maybe, I wouldn't have had an abortion. Then I would have been stuck on welfare indefinitely....stressed the fuck out with a pregnancy that I could've given two shits about, and eventually a newborn that I didn't want. Abortion.


Crist receives abortion ultrasound bill

TBO.com

Published: June 7, 2010

The Republican-led state legislature has sent a controversial bill requiring women to get an ultrasound before an abortion to Gov. Charlie Crist for action.

The bill, House Bill 1143, requires women who want an abortion to get an ultrasound exam in the first trimester of their pregnancy. Women would have to view the ultrasound and receive an explanation on how fetuses develop.

Crist has 15 days -- until June 22 -- to take action on the bill, but last month, he hinted at a Tampa Tribune editorial board meeting that he might veto it.

"On two fronts it disturbs me," Crist told the editorial board. "That you would force a woman to go through this procedure . . . almost seems mean-spirited. To have your government impose on you, listen to a lecture, then on top of that, you have to pay for it."

He said at the time there is "probably not a whole lot" keeping him from saying he's against it.

"Just time," Crist said. "Trying to gain more wisdom. I've got 15 days. I'm going to use them."